Well, it’s official: It’s gonna be a rough year and Dean and the kids and I are going to be needing some well wishes and some positive support. Today, I received this schedule of events for 2008 from Dean’s Commander and it took the air right out of me:
19-22 : Range week
15-29 : Range week recovery, possible long days
27–28: Company field problem
3-14: Battalion Field Exercise
18-22: Battalion Range week
3-18: Field exercise in Lewis and Yakima
21-25 – recovery week, possibly long days
5-16: Company exercise in Yakima
19-23: Battalion range week and recovery
7-22: Battalion exercise in Yakima
23-27: recovery week, possibly long nights
7-31: Equipment prep/load out
Block leave all month
Deployment to Mosul, Iraq
He’ll be gone for a few weeks out of every month until he leaves for Iraq. This sucks.
Dean’s deployment is for 15 months… a REALLY long deployment. Midway through, if we have the money, he’ll get two weeks of R&R to come visit us but that’s almost as hard because when they leave out again you know you still have the other half to go.
This deployment is going to be very hard because it’s going to be very lonely. I don’t know anyone here and I’m sort of isolated. I hope to god we have better contact than last time when they moved so often that they couldn’t communicate with us for weeks at a time.
Dean and I certainly have our issues but I really don’t want to lose him to this war. Last time, he came home from the desert addicted to meth amphetimes and with horrible depression that we are just now dealing with. He’s sober now and learning how to cope with things thanks to counseling and medication, but I fear 15 months in Iraq at this point is just asking for it. I can’t do another suicide attempt and I can’t do the folded flag routine, either.
Single motherhood is calling once again. Dean is going to miss Emi’s first birthday and so many other things.
September of 2008 to January of 2010…. it’s gonna be a looooong time until I sleep again.